Updated: Aug 13, 2021
I think that social media has the power to spread knowledge and show support for those in and around our communities. I can’t begin to put into words the amount that I have learned on the internet in the last few years. With that being said, social media also has the power to distract us from our own problems and lives. Forcing us out of the present moment everyday, and filling every moment of silence with another white noise. How many of us wake up in the morning and go straight for our phone? Before our minds have the opportunity to fully wake up we’re already fully engulfed in whatever is going on in the world around us. Don’t get me wrong, it’s important to stay updated with the state of our world, but when do we cross the line of putting the worlds issues before taking care of our own?
How many of us can’t even go to the bathroom without scrolling on Instagram or Tiktok?
I had to restrict the amount of time I spend on Tiktok a day because when looking at my screen time I was spending over 6 hours daily on the app.
Distracting myself, while I Ignored my responsibilities and my own mental health.
I’ve allowed myself to be so distracted by videos on the internet that I have hardly taken any time to just be alone with my thoughts. I think thats why we do it. We don’t want to acknowledge the issues in our lives so we distract ourselves with outside sources until it’s time to sleep and then we do it all again tomorrow.
I noticed that I would set an alarm and snooze it until noon because I would rather sleep than sit with my thoughts.
Distracting yourself is so easy. Dealing with the problem head on will always be challenging.
When I started writing this I thought that taking a break would be almost pathetic of me when I have worked hard to create a platform to spread knowledge and positivity. As I continue to write this, I feel like it is my job as someone that speaks about mental health, to honour my own mental health and take the time that I need to get less distracted, and more focused on my goals.
I often see angel number “1221”. This specific number has been telling me that I can support and guide others, and that I need to remember not to burn out in the process. I think that my spirit guides are pushing me towards this now more than ever. Although I have a strong urge to spread my story and help others, I need to ensure that I am putting myself first and live the life that I know I am capable of. I don’t plan on being gone forever. I want to create a platform of change and encouragement, and I will do exactly that when I am feeling like I have filled my own cup first.
For the next 60 days I will be taking a much needed hiatus from social media and a majority of the internet. In this time, I plan to strengthen my relationship with myself and God, and start living my life with freedom from outside opinion.
As a strong advocate for mental health I don’t think it would be right of me to continue to speak on it without first acknowledging my own.
I am so grateful to everyone who has supported my work in the past few months, and I am so excited to start this journey into deeper self love and discovery.
Thank you for your understanding,